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So, on Twitter today someone posted ‘take the book nearest you, turn to page 45, and the first three words describe your life at this moment’.

‘Yeah, right!’ says thought.

But still, curiosity got the better of me so I picked up the nearest book the cat was keeping warm, flicked to page 45 and read the first three words which were, ‘Where Are You?’

Feck! It was spot on. Spooooooky.

No, not spooky, we can attach value and place personal meaning on anything we want to, that’s how powerful we are – by thought alone we decide this is valuable and means something, and this is not.

Defining idea: everything is valueless until we attach meaning to it.

(Which reminds me, I must write about my disaster day a few weeks ago and attaching self to stuff, ‘scuse me while I make a note of that).

Done.

Right, where were we?

Oh yeah, the 3 words, ‘Where Are You?’ my answer, ‘In motion.’

I’m at an end and at a beginning. Exciting times.

Have you ever felt something similar?

Where you just know (by that lovely gorgeous inbuilt wisdom you own) you’re at an ending, but you aren’t 100% clear of what you’re creating next, or where you’re stepping and putting your tootsies?

But you also know that the shifts are for your greater good?

One thing to do would be to ignore the feeling that something is most definitely coming to end and new is emerging, and plod on unconsciously with life as normal.

I’ve done that before – plodded unconsciously – even though I knew (hello wisdom/intuition/whatever you want to call it … we meet again) the new beginnings – although perhaps a challenge and uncertain – would have brought me closer to who I really am.

And here’s the insanity part … I didn’t walk that way.

There’s a saying ‘it’s easier to destroy than to create’. (Ever built a sandcastle – I rest my case).

But it’s a thread all through life – art, projects, ideas, relationships, connections, learning, work, intentions, goals,  all areas- when we create unconsciously, not being present,  truthful and mindful about the creation.

I mean, take relationships – maybe this is just true for me but I’ll eat my socks if it is (I won’t actually do that) – I’ve ‘fallen in love’ and created relationships unconsciously.

Translated, that means, what the hell was I thinking? I know what I was thinking now – not a heck of a lot – or more truthfully, I was thinking exactly what I got. Mmm.

And, like most things in life that we unconsciously create it isn’t long before cracks start to show.

Consciously creating is a soul-full work.

And surprise, surprise, surprise – we don’t seem to get round to it that often. Why? I think because we are so busy responding and reacting to out there we don’t have time to think what is really going on inside.

I mean to cease reacting to all and everything? Um, there’s a challenge, especially at the speed of which information comes at us and how it demands we pay attention.

You are in creation at every instance, of every day, we all are – how cool is that?

By thought alone you create. And you have many thoughts.

To consciously create takes courage as (let’s not lie) it can be uncomfortable, it can bring up for you all your vulnerabilities, fears, insecurity and doubts to make (be) that which you have never made (become) before, what a dare!

I’m in. And I’m playing. I’m accepting my own dare.

Where Are You?

Did you know the word courage is from the French word cor, derived from Latin it means ‘heart’ and with ‘soul or mind’? And that is where I am at on page 45, I fit a quote at the moment ‘let go of who you think you are so that you can become who you came here to be’.

Where am I?

Happily going through some transforming, endings, shifting and moving … putting more soul into what goes on around here … but that’s me, what about you?

Here’s an idea for you:

I’m not asking you to walk along with me (this is my path) but is there something in your life that you are holding onto so tightly but you know if you found the courage to let it go you will become who you came here to be?

Oh, that’s a question and a half, huh?

Do you have a little time today to spend on your courage (mind, heart and soul) consciously?

Can you give yourself the space in each instance to not react – even for 24 hours? Play with it?

Can you spend 10 minutes to consider where are you living by reaction: what you ‘should’ be doing, what you ‘have to do’ and how it’s stopping what you came here to do?

Are you able to take those same 10 minutes to consciously answer who’s expectations, dreams, goals and life are you truly living – are you creating it, or has/is someone or something created/creating it for you?

What’s in your life keeping you back from who you truly are, and you don’t even know how it happened?

Where are you giving enough time and space to becoming who you came here to be?

What are you paying attention to?

What thoughts are you splashing around in that are causing you forget you can actually swim?

Maybe you’ve just scanned the questions. That’s okay. I’m not that conscious when I’m sat at the computer or playing with my phone either.

Are you able to scroll back up, read them again, and let them sink in?

Along with this … you are not here to live, work, or create in fear (think I might get that tattooed on my forehead, I’m never done saying it!).

You are here to be uniquely you.

To live the truth of who you really are. (Second tattoo).

Your truth. Not one created for you.

I know you know that. But the world is designed (at present) to keep you separated and distant from knowing (unless you are consciously aware of it).

When you take your 10 minutes today think about this … what life would you be creating if you consciously aligned yourself with you truly are?

Email me your thoughts if you fancy, I promise to reply before 2020!

Oh, and don’t worry if your answers are foggy, cause the coolest part in all this is, your truth isn’t going anywhere, it will sit there, patiently, waiting for your return.

Where are you?

Stay conscious.

 

If you had been at JFK Airport, late October 1995, boarding a plane to London, you may remember a couple of young woman crying because they didn’t want to get on the flight home.

Visas were up, flight was boarding, no pennies, but they seriously discussed their (limited) options.

However, they knew deep down they were going to have to step on board and make do with free gin available on the 5 hour flight home.

Gosh, I got so drunk that flight! What a state, we’d be put off in Iceland by a Flight Marshall today. Not for being rowdy, for the never ending weeping!

I’d spent six months in the US, working and travelling, and I met two people who would then become a key part of my life, even today.

I didn’t want to come home because I didn’t want to pick up a relationship that was poisonous, live in a home that held no love (with the poison), return to university to complete a degree that I even knew I didn’t want to do the day I began (referring my place for three years, was a big enough hint I didn’t take!).

In fact, I didn’t have clue what I wanted to really do.

Because I had went to the States alone (no one knew me) to teach drama (my love), all of that (percieved) yuckie life stuff was left in the UK.

You know the phrase I use a lot, become who you are, those 6 months I believe were the first time I understood and lived what it meant. I didn’t have the same understanding at the time, but now, yes.

Some would say it was just the holiday blues that I didn’t want to come home. No, holiday blues aren’t real and don’t exist.

What was real was the fact I was unhappy with the life I had thought up and created back in the UK.

What did exist was I had experienced and caught a glimpse of a picture of who I really was, and the picture of life back home sure as hell didn’t match it.

It’s holiday season in the Western Hemisphere, schools are out, people boarding flights, ferries, trains and automobiles. Some will use the time to rest, restore and revive.

And others will see at as an opportunity to ‘get it away from it all’, to ‘have a break for a bit’ so they can ‘leave their worries behind’.

Like I did, you may not want to return, or when you do you’ll probably want to hold onto the picture of the you that can do and experience peace, relaxation, carefree, fun, enjoying every moment, eating well, sleeping soundly, a happier you.

What if … and this is for all of us … holidays or not,

• What if that’s the way life was meant to be all the time?
• What if ‘real’ life wasn’t something you had to ‘get away from’?
• What if, you didn’t want to ‘have a break from real life’, because it was to good to be separated from?
• What if, worries didn’t exist, never mind being left behind?
• What if, there is no distance or a journey to take to become who you really are, you were already here?

Now, depending on your thinking, you may have completed resisted my questions.

That’s fine. I understand. I remember when I came back from the US I thought I left that person (I liked, and loved) over there.

When I returned, I automatically bought into people telling me that, ‘It’s back to normal’ and, ‘You can’t live the freedom life forever’.

Today I would ask.

Normal? According to who’s definition of normal? Can’t be free? Why not? Who decided that one? Is that not how we arrived? I signed nothing to say otherwise.

One of the reasons I do what I do (including these blog posts) is because I believe in us, that who we really are (confident, free, fearless, courageous, and all other moxie stuff) isn’t at some other destination, it’s not a 4 hour flight away, or a suitcase packed with your finest, nor is it in India, Peru or Brazil.

It’s also not in our worries, fears, doubts, what everyone else says the rules are.

My intentions are genuine, I want to provoke you in a nice way, inspire you, and yes … motivate you to question and then act.

So,

Without getting a flight, The Moxie Project starts the 2nd of July. And yes, I do hope you make the non-distance journey.

Why? Because there is a massive difference from ‘being you’ for a few weeks a year, to being you … all year.

You aren’t here to live, work, create in fear. You are here to be a full on unapologetic of your gorgeous amazing self. All time. Not just some of the time.

I hope you can join us.